The Hollow Queen Series

A strange flip-flop, I know…

I spent around 9 months on a book (6 promoting and editing it), only to unpublish it a month later, along with all my other books (again).

I intended for Vows of Shadow to be the beginning of a series that I was planning to continue for several years. But things changed.

A few years ago, I had decided to stop writing. Or publishing, at least. Not only did I no longer have much time for it, but I had found my faith in God again, and decided that those books contained things I didn’t want to spread out in the world anymore. I wanted to be better and different. It took a lot of willpower because all of my written works have taken so much time and effort, but I gradually unpublished everything.

I let it go.

So a couple of years ago, I got on an anxiety med that (as they sometimes do) altered my thinking a bit. I didn’t really realize it, but eventually I found myself writing this very rambling dark fantasy erotica work that was very self-indulgent, and since I liked it and saw potential for it to be ongoing, I decided to publish it.

I set the release date for December 2, and spent 6 months promoting and editing. And during that time, I found out I was pregnant again. Unexpectedly… So, when I found out, I came off my med. And my real self began to come back a bit.

Even though my re-established beliefs began to nag me about publishing this book nearer to the date I had set to publish, I had already promised it, and had gone so far to work on it. I convinced myself it was okay for me to do, even though my conscience was trying to tell me otherwise.

After the release of the book, I had intended to keep promoting it, but I didn’t. My head was too full of other things, and eventually, the med truly cleared from my brain and I gained my resolve again. So, I now feel that I have published something I shouldn’t have. I have unpublished Vows of Shadow, along with all of my previous works (again).

I’m just not that person truly, and was always afraid to let it be my real self while I was writing. Which is why I used a pseudonym.

So if you purchased/read the book, I feel I did you a disservice. Now I need to focus more once again on my faith and my family, and likely won’t be touching that particular med again…